Saturday, May 15, 2010
not very happy about yesterday's dinner .
my aunt , as usual , keep saying i skinny and wadever .
"Aiyo , so skinny ar ! " as if this is the first time she saw me .
" Eat more , Eat more . " as if i never knew about this method .
and as if being fat is healthier .
although i should be grateful that she treat me dinner ..
im more hateful than grateful towards her .
my cousin is weird too . im confused .
are they trying to show off that my cousin reads many storybooks ?!
they just went to the library and my cousin read out loudly ,
"this one read already .. this one also .. "
and as a result , my mother kept nagging at me .
asking me to read more like my cousin .
i was so angry :X .
" I can finish those books she read like in 1 min . those are like P1 books loh . "
and i really took a book filled with extra large word each page .
Hmmph . i regretted . that must be hurting towards my cousin .
all this while , i had a feeling that they look down on me .
i noe , my PSLE results are poor .
but must they look down on me ?
as if she would surely score better ?!
Ya , im skinny and stupid .
so , my cousin is fat and "smart " ?
i swore not to go out with them anymore .
i broke it . i made that vow 2 years ago .
and i broke it many many times .
but i dun think i will break it again .
because i dunwan to be like an artifact in the musemum .
all the "wows" to the subject of me being skinny ,
and same words ringing my ears again and again ,
Or giving me tips that ONLY WORKS ON HER to make me grow fat .
im tired .
i rather use my own savings and buy myself and nice and peaceful meal .
or just cook plain porridge for dinner .
Ending my post here .
fantasylovenever will be mine.
