Tuesday, March 9, 2010
so many things to do recently .
quite sian .and tired of life .
seemed to be nothing to enjoy in life .
all those entertainments are just for us to pass time .
suddenly .. nothing is real .
Oh ya . din go Hanoi . (the overseas trip which SEEMED to be compulsory .. )
Asking me why ? Simple .
My parents din allowed . specifically, my dad . " Don't even think about it . "
thats the speech from him , that i guess i will remember it forever ..
i seemed to hate him .
but i noe i can't .
and i kept complaining about it to my mother .
which i already knew its not her fault .
felt so guilty .but these few days ..
i feel guilty for the slightest things .
actually quoted by a friend . :X
idk wad am i doing these days .
my handwriting ..is becoming bigger and bigger .
which is against my wishes previously ..
my cousin is buying a laptop soon .
hope i can get one too .. :( so that its easier for me to use .
and .. i do not nid to see angry faces just to use the computer .
But its just desires right ?
Just a dream to have so that i find life not so boring .
although..
my cousin got everything i desired faster than me,or even,i dun even have it ...
Feeling sad today .
Ending my post here .
fantasylovenever will be mine.
